The truth is, I have everything I have been hoping for right now. In fact I'm so happy that I'm scared. Instead of being happy about my wonderful life I've been focused on the negative and letting little things irritate me. As I was driving through the canyon this morning looking at what a beautiful valley I live in and thinking of Stacey's comment things became more clear. A weight lifted off my shoulder's and I realized how stupid I was being. My life is great! I have an amazing husband who loves me to death. I have three children who really are sweet and need a lot of love that I happen to have for them. I have great friends who say amazing things to me and don't even know it. I have a fantastic family that has always been a great support in my life. I have a fun job and work with awesome people.
When you're talking to friends and family that you care about, don't be afraid to tell them whats on your mind. If what you're saying is coming from a good place then everything will work out. I've said it before and I'll say it again, Stacey Tyler has saved me more than once. She is wise beyond her years! I am so thankful that I have her in my life.
JJBean
jilly,
ReplyDeleteI think your recent funk has two logical explanations. the first is as you described, "usually my life is changing drastically due to tragic accidents or something sad. Could it be that I'm conditioned to only bad things happening in my life? Could it be now that good things are happening I don't know how to handle them?"
the second is that you have been in a whirlwind the past few months, and now suddenly everything is stable, in it's place, and happy(blissful) and you may feel 'content'. you have not felt like this in. . . i don't know. . . probably forever. people go through this kind of depression when they reach a goal that they have worked for very hard or for a very long time.